Nick, Carolyn, Eve, Sky (June 2004)

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

Losing you is the closest thing to hell

Hi Sky-o,

This weekend a good friend of mine lost his precious 18-year old daughter to a long battle with several illnesses. I am crushed, so sad.

I sat down to type a little missive to him to let him know I am here and hopefully offer some words that might be helpful. I struggled to imagine sharing his pain, to be able to have some common reference point to offer my condolences.

The closest thing within me was losing you. That hole in my heart will never heal. Writing to him made me face those feelings again. Although I think of you every day, my remembering that day when I found out you were gone, feeling those feelings again, was unbearable.

You are always missed, my brother, and always loved.

Big Punko

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

Thanks for this post Nick. It brought me near tears to read it--he's left a hole in my heart as well. I wish I could just call him up or give him a hug.

It may sound strange but Mike and I think of him (and actually refer to him) whenever we see a dragonfly. It seems to help us feel connected to him in some way.

Lately we've been thinking of him more than usual. Two years ago we were in the midst of a move when we heard of Sky's passing. Now, exactly two years later, we've just moved back to California and his loss is coming up all over again for us. We miss him greatly.