Nick, Carolyn, Eve, Sky (June 2004)

Thursday, March 20, 2008

in remembrance

i want to say as a non-family member that this is a beautiful thing to do and something i plan to never have happen in my name. thank you for reminding me why.
 
i'm glad i never made my numerous plans reality like Sky did but my manic depression has resulted in days and weeks spent in contemplation over choosing the method, time and place of my death.  in honor of my child, i chose meds and a hospital instead. (lucky for me, i never thought i could pull it off without leaving myself worse off than i started and without the ability to complete the job).
 
i am touched by your tribute in ways you cannot imagine as it reminds me of why i choose to stay alive at times when anything but here was where i wanted to be.
 
i don't believe in life after the last breath but your memories and tribute to your loved one keeps him alive and although i never met him, it brought him alive to me.
 
Ruth